Last few months

I just realized, i posted only three times in last year, i guess this is the pits till now, but I'm an ardent follower of homer, and as he says I'm sure i can go to the depths and go on & on & on... :)

Anyways, a lot has happened since the last time i wrote anything, the more recent thing is i was able to vote for the first time in this election, and I'm still feeling a lot more confident and responsible. :)

I completed my month long (28 days to be precise) Basic Mountaineering Course in Nehru Institute of Mountaineering , Uttarkashi. (apparently the premiere mountaineering institute in Asia).
The course was great, very physically demanding besides being mentally tough, and was a much needed break for me.
The course was mainly divided in 3 parts, Rock craft, Snow Craft & Ice Craft.
we trekked for total 3 days to reach base camp, at 12300 ft. though we found lot (and i mean a lot) of snow a camp before base camp at 11000 feet.
we spent 14 days at base camp doing ice craft and snow craft and map reading and last day as height gain (reached 15000ft).
Anyways that's that, course has ended, & I am back to the grind. The first thing that i felt after coming back was the HEAT !!! it was SWEATY and YUCKY !! and Mumbai definitely stinks.
After living for 15 days in zero and sub zero temperatures, it was difficult for couple of days to get adjusted, but once the inner Mumbaikar came out, then no issues at all.

Its been 2 months since i came back from my course, and damn it was a roller coaster ride, for some reason, work just keeps on pouring...

Ohh yeah and did i tell you that we rigged up cool stunts for a dance reality show "Dance India Dance" on Zee tv.

It was the most craziest week of my life till now, it was some 7 hrs of sleep in 62 hrs so effectively, we slept for 7 hrs in 3 days, 2nd day was all nighter, we actually worked for 24hrs straight, first day slept for 3.5 hrs and last day slept for 3.5 hrs. after that last 2 days we managed to get sleep of about 4 hrs each day, but in the end it was a great show, flawless execution of all the stunts from our side. Everything was well done.

( 4th day also happened to be my birthday, where i switched of my cell phone for whole day so that i wont get disturbed while i was working, and boy did i get fired left and right from everyone, i finally went around calling everyone who had tried to get in touch with me unsuccessfully, and asking them to wish me :P ).
but all's well that ends well.

Will keep you posted about the rest of the happenings.
Adios Amigos

A Good Day

My dear diary,

This post was long overdue, its been so long that ive written something. So i decided to write something which is still fresh in my mind.

Has it ever happened with you that you meet a person and you feel instant connection, something between you and the other person just clicks, and you end up having a great conversation.

well something similar happened and i absolutely enjoyed it. The whole day went well and iam happy, i mean really happy and smiling, it just feels great to have a good conversation with someone.

well i have to agree, life is full of surprises or the way you say in hindi "zindagi itefaq se bhari hia".

:)

Go, make upcoming day a good day. meet someone new, you just might end up earning a great new friend.

Gaurang

Touched base today !!! ;-)

A Blog Post

It was about time that i wrote a blog post...
so here gOes...













BLOG POST !!!!!










:D so long suckers...

Sweet Nothings

It’s past midnight,

I want to sleep, but I cannot,because she teases me, she entices me just enough and goes away...

I cannot sleep, I say to her, darling let me have some sleep; I have to get up early tomorrow.

She doesn’t say anything,

I think about her and know how I love her; I could be with her for whole day and still won’t be tired.

It all happened without even saying, there was this unspeakable understanding between us and I didn’t even had to say anything... we just hooked on together.

She enticed me again and broke my train of thoughts... I cursed, I wanted to know what are sweet dreams made of... but she wouldn’t let me... she wouldn’t come near, time runs by as lucidly as possible... I wondered will I be able to dream today?

I want to know what are sweet dreams made of … and then silently she crept near,

She whispers, “I am your love, My name is sleep” and she slowly whispers sweet nothings and puts me into peaceful trance…

And that’s how I slept at 3 Am in the morning… :-)

PS: Just a stupid post to end a day :P

Quote

"I mean, any guy who can lose to the Shodaime, but outlive him, create his own gang of superpower bastards, without them knowing who the actual boss is, and can act like a dumbass and mingle with them, and then fake his death (Again), is the type of villain everyone should aspire to be."

- Shyam Sheshadri
(for naruto 370 )

And i completely Agree with him !!!!!

*jinx* (i cant think of any better Title for this post)

Hello My dear Virtual diary,

Its been a long time since i gave you a piece of my mind(or Bullshit if you want). So, im back with the Vengeance and giving you a piece of somone else's mind today..

This is the Conversation which happened between certain someone and certain somone who is not the aforementioned certain someone :D..

rCkclimb3r: You Know what, I've read about how people met, on the net and fell in love and few even got married, i just dont get it where the fuck do they meet them, why the fuck i dont meet anyone online...
stOrmr!der: THIS is a very good Q
rCkclimb3r: Give me a damn good answer.. BC
stOrmr!der: Luck Fuck!
rCkclimb3r: LMAO
stOrmr!der: BAss yahi ek reason hai. Jab milne hogi tab woh mil jaygi , and agar zor zabardasti karke dhoondte hain toh koi nahi milta hai.. its true wht they say after all
GIRLS : can't live with them and cant live without 'em !!!
rCkclimb3r: True,Your point is taken..

stOrmr!der: i am make things very messy as far as girls are concerned...i somehow screw up always...althou have learn a great deal about their kind , but still they have many things up their sleeves.

rCkclimb3r: hehehe dont worry You will fully master the art of Motorcycle Maintainence i mean Girl Maintainence :D ;)
stOrmr!der: I think there might be a sayin which goes like this : those who master the true art are bound to die withind next 7 days !! there is NO way u can master that art , u can try and try and try to come closer to attainin perfection but in the end u are just a helpless man who is up against a diff race altoghther. Hell Hath No fury.....
rCkclimb3r: OMG LMFAO How true can you get.. ;)
stOrmr!der: kya bhaari wala de raha hoon na mein , kabhi fursat se koi post likh doonga blog pe mein ...hahha
rCkclimb3r: Mein abhi yehi bolne wala tha aaj full form mein hia jaldi se post likh dal :D

Well the rCkclimb3r mentioned here is Me :-) and stOrmr!der is one of my friend.. named Neeraj. yeah i beat him in posting this conversation. :D

So, the Moral of the post and the conversation is ? I'm completely bored at this time and had no other work to do other than pasting the chat i had with a friend , so hence this post. :-) and also hoping this will break the jinx and ill write something worthwhile !!!

so Adios fellas..
"Do the right thing " ( just felt i should write this line without any context actually i just remembered this line from Russell Peters WHO CARES ITS MY BLOG I CAN WRITE ANYTHING I WANT).

Rains...

Rains..... everything inundated.. i have to go.. its my calling..
A calling for pure joy, and i go...
i walk alone... alone in a downpour..i just roam around..
i feel the rain..
i feel it pouring on me..
i feel it within me..
A pure joy stemming from heaven up above..
why do i like rains.. ?
why does it makes me happy? why does it makes me calm?
i just walk around.. with a bliss.. feeling the rain
i dont feel cold.. im beyond that.. i feel the wind with the rains.. a faithful companion of rain.. never leaving it alone be it in any situation..
why am i blissful?
i feel the rains..
i feel, the way, a tree feels when it receives the first rains..
i am the tree.. im the rain..
i understand it ...and i walk blissfully, getting drenched in the source of life...

Cheesy Science Related pick Up Lines..

Recently i came across these and i shamelessely copied them to my blog :D i.e. No, I did not come up with these. :P

-Wanna come to the lab and check out my ball and stick
model?

-Hey baby, you're sweeter than 3.14

-Hey baby... why don't you get your ligase working on my okazaki fragment and lengthen my strand

-Chemists do it on the table, periodically...

-You're so attractive, you could strip the electrons from a fluorine atom!

-Baby, I wish you and I could be part of some facilitated diffusion because I'd love to go in your channel!

-Your clothes are a carbonyl group, shall we reduce them?

-Some dates have called me a promotor. Others have referred to me as a real operator. Personally, I think I'm just a cute piece of DNA who is still looking for that special transcription factor to help me unwind.

-Hey babe - wanna strip and probe some membranes?

-Let my ligand bind your G protein... I swear, you'll experience a cascade of reactions.

- So what if my substrate isn't specific to your active site? Word in the cytoplasm has it that you're quite a promiscuous enzyme.

-Mind if i undo your leucine zipper so i can get my zinc fingers into your major groove?

-Are you dividing? Because you have a very nice cleavage furrow.

-Do you want to extract some protein from my column?

-You must be a lac operon because you definitely just turned me on.

-If I were a detergent and you were a cell, I'd be Triton X-20 so I can disrupt your membrane.

-Let's make like DNA...you go 5' to 3', I'll go 3' to 5'.

-I hope I'm not too big to penetrate your selectively permeable membrane..

-Baby, let's make like PCR and multiply like crazy

-I want to be your integral and be the area under your curves

-I wish I were sin^2 and you were cos^2 so together we could be 1

-Things aren't going too well with my girlfriend, how about a u-substitution?

-I want to be your second derivative so I can analyze your concavities

-are you an unsaturated fatty acid?..coz you look quite kinky to me

-Anyone interested in seeing my golgi aparatus?

-nice ASSetyl

-OOOOH can i be the pillus in between you guys...Rolling circle replication really feels good.

-lets go from being a homomorphism to an isomorphism,lets add one-to-one and onto to our relationship.

-..F+ plasmid looking to conjugate...

-...baby you are a constitutive mutant..you keep my operon turned on..

-hey, wanna form an enzyme-substrate complex and catalyze some reactions?

-if you were an enzyme, I would want you to be ligase so you could complete me

-Let's turn up the temperature, denature your enzymes, and increase productivity

-How can u tell the difference between a girl cromosome and a boy cromosome?You Pull down their genes!!!

-Can I be your derivative so i can be tangent to all your curves?

Right Now.

My Beloved blog,

I'm writing to you after a long long time... from a kingdom far far away (just a figure of speech)...

How have you been? I know how you feel, you feel like you are in a slave trade, A salve who is going to be Sold and everyone comes and looks at you and decides is it worth paying attention?

Its Disgusting I know... but this is what it has become... A Fucking Slave Trade or a congress house for that matter (Mumbai people know what Congress House is).

Anyways I'm sorry... i can’t help it, you are born with it and for it... you have to take it in your stride...

I'll talk about myself though (as always: D narcissistic I know: P)...

Life's been a quite sucky.. Since last time I wrote... number one reason, I had my exams... As popular belief states "Exams always screws you", well I ain't a exception either, mine did a pretty good job. Only silver lining my practicals were quite good, and theory also successively got better... (at least a impression if not in marks)...

In Exam time, I had made a "Things ill do after my exam list"

Well it takes a lot of effort now to even read the list, because of sheer laziness...

But I'm enjoying the vacations...

reason number one : I'm learning SALSA.. and its whole lot fun, i always wanted to learn a dance form, and nothings better than a salsa, and it has not at all disappointed me, though its difficult and needs practice but dosen’t loose its fun quotient.and my partner is also a chick :D so its more fun...

reason Number 2: I'm learning to drive.. :-) (Four wheeler). A friend of mine was very kind enough to be ready to teach me how to drive...

reason number 3: i can climb whenever i want..

and i can always take a break, sleep my hearts out and then sleep again :D

so lifes quite a fun right now...

so talk to you later.. im feeling sleepy and tommororow i have to go to YMCA for enrolling myself in swimming class... oo did i mention im trying to learn swimming also.. :D

Quarter Life Crisis

Hello, to all people reading this

Have you ever felt, umm "nothing", exactly the lack of emotions to many things you feel you should react to it emotionally, the frustration of doing nothing, the frustration of unable to do anything because of sheer laziness, the feeling of not enjoying anything.

You know what are the things you are supposed to do, but you just cant bring yourself to do it, even though how important that thing may be, you watch your old world crumble before you, but there is nothing you can do about it, you think about things more profoundly, you start to ask questions like "What is meaning of Life", you try to find about more about everything, try to find deeper meaning to you and everything around it.

Exactly this is partially what I'm going through currently, Its like one of the most boring,frustrating point in my life. i just don't feel like doing many things that i have to do or i used to do.

I was quite dumbfounded about what is happening to me, then one of my friend (he has also talked about quarter life crisis but he didn't knew it was it at that time, Read his blog Neeraj) mentioned something about the Quarter-life crisis and i tried to find out more about it..
Here is what i could dug up about it from Google...

Quarter Life Crisis

"It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.


You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.

You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!"

Though for me still the Job and loans doesn't count as reasons and yes one night stand also doesn't count :D.
You may realize how true it is or you may conclude how stupid i have become but What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

Here's a gist what Wikipedia says about it:

"Characteristics of this crisis are:

* feeling "not good enough" because one can't find a job that is at his/her academic / intellectual level
* frustration with relationships, the working world, and finding a suitable job or career
* confusion of identity
* insecurity regarding the near future
* insecurity regarding present accomplishments
* re-evaluation of close interpersonal relationships
* disappointment with one's job
* nostalgia for university or college life
* tendency to hold stronger opinions
* boredom with social interactions
* financially-rooted stress
* loneliness
* desire to have children
* a sense that everyone is, somehow, doing better than you

These emotions and insecurities are not uncommon at this age, nor at any age in adult life. In the context of the quarter-life crisis, however, they occur shortly after a young person – usually an educated professional, in this context – enters the "real world". After entering adult life and coming to terms with its responsibilities, some individuals find themselves in a world of career stagnation and extreme insecurity. This can be after a first job or straight out of college/university. Whenever it is, the real world is tougher, more competitive and less forgiving than they imagined. Furthermore, the qualifications they have spent so much time and money earning are not likely to prepare them for this.

As the emotional ups-and-downs of adolescence and college life subside, many in the quarter-life crisis experience a "graying" of emotion. While emotional interactions may be intense in a high school or college environment – where everyone is roughly the same age and hormones are highly active – these interactions become subtler and more private in adult life. Nobody wants to admit to feeling like a 'loser'. This secrecy intensifies the problem."


So, I'm Happy I'm not Alone :-), and besides there are still some things that i find solace in, so all is not that bleak :).

Thought I should share this

Well i recently came across this piece, i really found it quite profound and was amazed at the way it is written, its so wonderful and just gets the message across quite beautifully.
I just couldnt help but share it with everyone..
Enjoy the well written words below...


"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul. And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't promises. And you begin to accept your defeats with the grace of a woman or a man, not the grief of a child. And you learn to build all your roads on today, because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans, and future's have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you ask too much. So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong, and you really do have worth. And you learn, and you learn, with every goodbye....you learn."

Talking Gyan

There are people who just wants to know about other people's life, even if they don't know them, If it wouldn't have been that way then how would the Entertainment magazines would work? That's it, its just a entertainment for those kind of people, poking around in other peoples life..
well For those kind of people,
So here is what i think...
I always think, why one person is interested in other persons life?, I'm not saying I'm Different, even I'm the same, in fact I'm the most Inquisitive person you will find, but then yes i think im the anomaly in this imperfect world ;-) and then again, i think man is a social animal, Human physcology is the most complex thing in the world. So what is my life? How do i define it?

I think If My life is a like a structure made of a pack of cards, I usually wonder which one of them needs to be removed or where to add another one to make the structure look more beautiful... but that really is very tough, to remove or add anything now. So i am just happy the way it is.

But then it suddenly hits me - "who has been placing the cards till now?" then i think for a while... more questions come in "were the cards placed randomly? or were they thought over and then carefully kept? Who is so patient to have been doing it for the last 21 years???? What if the wind blows too hard? Why can't I choose the cards? Or can I?

So what are you, a passing by soft breeze or a Card or a big blow of wind???? :-)


I think there is no particular way one can be defined. Everything is changing, so much that what is said today might not hold good tomorrow.
Like a river, can you define a river? NO.
A temporary definition could be done based on its direction of flow but remember even that is based on so many other factors.Everyone Changes, I change,My Friends Change,People around me change.Sorry I can’t define myself. But right now, I am honest and am talking lot of gyan ;-)
- So, Myself Mr. Gaurang Swarge, Nice to meet you.

well If you are one of those people who have me, in their good books and who are apparently a little bit Victorian in their attitude, then i suggest you skip the entry below this and read everything else... believe me it will be worth it.... :D

well, i wouldnt want to change books, now would i?.. .Question is who would rather want to??
anyways enuf of bullshit... go on shoo shoo...

Fuck YOU

The following write up contains the explicit language so if u want to read it do it on your own decision...
Oh what the fuck if you want to read it just go ahead and read it or else Y would you be here? Its just like those fucking porn sites where first page says "if you are above 18 then only ENTER otherwise EXIT" what the fuck, why the people come to that site anyway? to enter only rite? As if kid’s after reading that closetheir browser and goes to some other site... Fucking lame legalities... so go on read it


Iam just so fucking frustrated currently, i don’t know why?, Iam just feeling frustrated at this moment i just so fuckin hate everyone,
I hate all those arses who try to act smart and try to show they are close to me by calling me with nick name which only few ppl use. WTF YOU Arseholes, do you need that i should put my foot in your mouth to tell u to don’t do that, cant u just fucking understand? i hate all those people who message me now and then asking hub, or asking me to send them some file or asking what u doing? Y cant i work on PC? C’mon dam it I AM A COMPUTER SCIENCE STUDENT, I FUCK MY PC 20 hrs a day and u ask me what Iam doing?
I just fucking hate all those people who think PC is just only for watching porn and playing Games, Bloody losers they should seriously get a life .... To all of them _|_ ,
I just hate all those Bitches who just try to act smart and shows lot of attitude.. FUCK THEM, and just now i read a article in newspaper stating that "when people are in bad mood they work much more and better", which did nothing but pissing me off more. WTF was that ? Seriously it was a fucking "piece of shit" article by some reporter whose brain is bigger than his ass..
OO and yeah I Hate those people who just cant listen to what other people are saying , they just wana fucking do what they want and get into trouble , wtf can’t they understand sometimes its better to listen to people who want to convey something to you?
FUCK iam just so pissed... I don’t even want to write anything

Those Eyes...

This came to me dead in the middle of the night as a mixture of some insane deep thoughts or as a dream or mixture of both, but i felt i should write this down so i did...
as my friend put it "So u had a Jerry Mcguire experience huh?" well yes i had... so here goes



i saw in those eyes,those beautiful eyes.. i knew i loved her, i couldnt stop, i pulled her close and looked in those eyes,those deep eyes , i could get lost in them for eternity... so beautiful...

she looked at me, i could sense nervousness in them,i could feel her quiver...
i couldnt resist... she tried to pull away but i pulled her back... she said let me go... i said nothing...
i just carassed her cheek with back of my fingers, i just gently blowed away the fringe of hair from her face.. pulled back those locks of hair behind her ear...

i felt her tensed.. she was so beautiful, she was so serene... i knew i loved her long before i met her..
i lifted her hand pulled it closer and kissed it... still closer she came .. closer and closer .. finally i could feel her breath. i could smell her hair...
she buried her head in my chest.. i held her just like that...

i could live my life with just this moment as a memory..
i felt her melt... i felt as if i had world in my arms...

i lifted her chin .. and saw that lovely face,closed eyes.. as if they dont know what to expect, maybe they dont want to expect anything, expecting this moment should froze forever..

and those set of eyes opened .. they looked at me....
wow, i thought this moment will never end.. but it was not to happen as she looked at me.. suddenly the harsh reality came with force . she backed out...
she remembered she was nothing more than a friend to me... she had never thought of me . the way i thought of her...
she never loved me the way i did..

and she backed out .. i just stood there ,standing in the rain..
she left me a rose in the rain... from which the smell had already gone out...


"No girl was hurt directly or indirectly while writing this piece of work...
all the work is purely fictious and imaginary, if any resembelence occur to real life incident then its completly incidental and author should not be held respoinsible"

The Day that came and Gone and is never going to come again or shall I say Gone with the wind……

And then the day really came... the day I was really not prepared for....

Our Farewell day........

This in short meant we were being officially kicked from our college....

Our OWN college for 3 years (in my case for 2 years but nonetheless it was worth 3 years)

n now iam a passed out.... just a bystander to all the college activities that i was part off....

Nothing more....does that make me sad ....I don’t know...

I met some of my best friends of my life in college.... so there is no Question of missing them because u don’t miss best friends even if you are away or not in touch... you are always close to each other...

but still now as i think of the future.... i wonder where will be everyone in span of say.. 5 years...

Will some of us will be married and even have kids???? i don’t know......

I see how it will go...

for the first 3 months we all be very much in touch with each other....we will call each other, we will meet each other....then as the time passes... calls will be less frequent....and within 6 months calls will come down to SMS and within 1 year I guess we will be finding reasons to SMS or call each other....n only 2-3 or less than that will actually take efforts to be in touch....

I really hope that’s not the case.....and i want to be proved wrong...

Someone asked me will i miss my college? ..........hell yes i would...

there are people who will tell they will miss all the masti they did in college but u know what ill miss (considering that people think iam studious kind ....well to some extent iam...) I’ll miss the way we slogged for hours for tomorrows submissions.. ya i know its not worth remembering but come on admit it you are not going to do that again....that’s a part n parcel of college life .... Everybody remembers the way they had fun but this is also a type of fun isn’t it???

yeah i had my share of fun...(and that did reflect in my second years marks :-) )....for full 1 year i dint know the existence of one lecture (didn’t know how did i missed that ;-) ) ...in second year my attendance in Chinaman ( a so called Chinese restaurant in front of our college ) was more than my attendance in college lectures....but i will also remember the fun i had during lectures in third year.....(remember the time in Tanuja madams lecture in front the whole class i repeated her exact lines "U r in TY now"....or the case when i sent a message to whole class on their UNIX terminal in Sushma madams lecture...) and the list still continues.....

I experienced many things in College.... Companionship, friendship, hate, jealousy, love, romance (hmm not actually….. but I can say at least of my share, towards the end and don’t come after me who all don’t know cause iam not going to tell it’s my secret) and much more i cant describe…….

Well enough of that It’s a closed chapter...now its new College, new friends (without forgetting Old friends) and a whole New dimension to life but still i think its never going to leave me......

So, here’s to the new chapter in my life........

CHEERS........

well the first one

well finally started this .........
cause i was becoming lazy n thought should do atleast somthing................